somebody asked t recollect on our lives for the year 2008.
be it happy or unhappy things.
and also new year resolution for 2009.

i would love t share it,
but it would be up those emotions as well.
even now causally bringing it up
tears would roll down.

i know i should face it bravely,
& accept the fact.
but then it hard t get over it.
i know crying doesnt help much,
but just cant help & become that cry baby again.
that's the weak side of me.

i may have dual personality
that's a different side of me
which many are surprised of it.
different in their perspective.
but its just t cover up things
which i dont want others t know.

i had a bad nightmare.
i dream that people ard me are living me,
alone on this world.
its v scary pls.

she would often be there when i got nightmares.
now i woke up in a state of shock,
realising that its just nightmare.

i really miss ma.
losing her is something undescribeable.
till now i would still be thinking that she's still around,
but reality oftens wake me up from those thoughts & dreams.

it hurts badly.
& the feeling is over & over again.
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