its New Year's Eve!

finally the Year 2008 is coming t an end.
its been an eventful year for me;
with all the ups & downs.
especially those super down ones.
still trying t pick up myself from those downs.

with so much changes that i have t adapt.
especially for the lost of someone dearly t me;
& accepting all the cruel facts/ reality
that i never knew or pretend not t know.

i would love t spent this day happily counting down,
for the arrival of the new year.
but then i'm suddenly down with this pain
at my backbone
which i don't know what caused it.
& i guess i have t bear with the pain;
till new year's over.

this cause some fear in me.
worst case scenerio would be
the history of mum happens on me.
otherwise,
it would be that i am bedridden for the rest of my life.
i know these are all negative thoughts.
but i guess i'm prepared for it.

the pain is killing me.
i just got t bear with it.
pls give me the strength t carry on.

i miss;
i envy;
i jealous;
i appreciate;
i treasure;
i regret;
i shouldnt;
i feel;
i heart;
i teared;
etc

i think these are just my recollection for the year 2008.
a year that i would never forget in my life.

06082008;
2049