Monday just met with this girl. so long haven't been meeting up with her alr. miss those days. we met at Parkway and i saw Kailing (Brandon's GF) & Tan ChuYing. went t sing K with Sotong at teo heng. plus updating each other with a lots of things. but one things for sure that we had lots of fun.


you guys coloured my life in rp.

i don't know what is wrong with me. i just been feeling down. really down. it started off with not celebrating bestie's birthday and not going sentosa with her. bad enough. i know this is the first time out of so many years i have been celebrating with her. i know she is upset and all.but she kept quiet. but i was seriously on budget. i cant spent like i used t be for your birthday like before even though i wish t do so.

Moday and tuesday, i started and tried so hard t wake up just t attend school. i've been dragging myself t sch just like others did. i really tried very hard t do my best and contribute t my classmates. but then i just felt that i was dumb. i cant seem t understand things and groupmates just ... idk how t say also. its just those feelings that ive got. every time after presentation, i always felt very bad. as in myself being so lousy and all. tears would start t roll down. i so wanted t fulfill my promised t my mother which was her last wish but i seem t have let her down and disappoint her. how? what am i supposed t do? im feeling the stress from classmates because they are all so good.

i dont want any sympathy or pity from others.

t you:
maybe you are still angry with me, i understand. im not trying t ruin our friendship. i was really on budget. dad transfer money t me on monday. and i decided with my friend t meet up on monday itself. i will make up t you some day as i said before. maybe whatever i say now you might not listen but maybe one day you will forgive me. i didnt expect you t comfort me or what cause i dont want t bring any distruction t your life or others because of me. that's all. all those misunderstanding, though it hurts but i wont mind cause im at fault first. all i want t say t you is im sorry.