Happy Birthday Bestie!

okays. haven been blogging these few days. and i haven been going sch for three time this week alr. cause i cant wake up. hais. damn terrible. but then i really dont know how alr. i just cant wake up. had hard time sleeping and hard time waking up. always over slept. then cant make it in time for sch. sians.

i dont know how t say. not that i dont like my new class or cant get along well with them. so dont get the wrong idea people. its just that i dont seem t get into the class bond?

im more like an individual maybe because i didnt attend class regularly. and that i really just cant seem t concentrate. lost the motivation of mine even though i promised i'll study hard t get good grade and graduate with the diploma im supposed t get. i just dont have the heart t do things. its so different when i first step into class for first sem. everyone in the class seems as though they are so much better that i can be even better or as good as them.

i just felt inferior. ):

i need t know how t find back my motivation for studies. i felt bad not putting my heart into things that i do when i promised ma by her bedside before she went off. that why i teared while i was presenting. it wasnt obvious so people didnt see it. but i just felt that i was bad. didnt perform as well as i did for first sem.

Anw, another few more people came and ask how old am i. they thought that i was younger than them like about 17 lah. OMG! i couldnt believe it pls. do i just look that young? or what? let other mistaken that im only 17 instead of 19. bestie says good mah. at least i look younger instead of older. hahas.

another thing is that im in operation department in SUI Main Comm. though its not the ideal department that i want t be in but then okay lahs. not too bad. at least under zhi zhong and queenie. plus together with Kelvin and Orange. hahas. dont know its call lucky or unlucky t be in same department as kelvin. LOL! joking. but at least with someone i get along well in same department is good. (: