i want to go back to the times we used to have together. but will i be given another chance? i guess we are now at the junction whereby you make the decision to determine where our future lies. i got no say in it because it my fault hence i respect every decision that you made. do you know the feeling of a convict waiting for the verdict by the judge- its either being sentence to death or given another chance? this kind of feeling is terrible. but i cant blame anyone else but myself and to endure this kind of pain quietly. i know you must be very hurt and feeling much more pain than i am feeling now. deep down in my heart, i already have this mental preaparation of the verdict that will come out dont know when but still im still hoping to be given another chance to start all over again. not sure if its possible. to me, you are very important and i really dont want to lose you. i cant image if my life were to be without you. i know i cant be so selfish to keep you by my side and suffer so if its means to let you go, i will just let you go and wish you all the best. i have done my best to make up for all the wrongs that i've done and i really dont know what else can i do anymore, so now its time for you to make a decision.

but here, i would like to thank you for giving me those wonderful time during this two months and twenty-six days. although we didnt spent much time physically together but i still had wonderful memories even though you are in aussie. i have no regrets knowing you and being together with you. thanks. i love you always.

i am really sorry. my sincere apology form the bottom of my heart.