feelings faded.
everything is gone.
what is left are all memories.

back to friends is something i still cant accept yet. maybe i just need time. i just totally breakdown today. the smallest hope i was hoping for was gone just like that. i know i shouldnt be hurting myself cause it will just makes things worse but its just my way of venting my frustrations on myself. i dont feel like doing anything beside staring into space. this blow is indeed too big for me to handle.

how i wish i could just be gone with the feelings. at least i dont live in pain and feeling so miserable and terrible. my head and heart hurts terribly. i was looking forward to this sunday but now as each day pass, i just wish god could just take me away from all these things that i couldnt take it anymore. i told myself not to plunge in so deeply just like bestie did but still, i plunged in deeper. now i dont know how to get myself up on my feet again.

the moment i saw that the ring was gone on your hand, i knew it time to end. i never knew that my effort actually becomes a routine and its was cause feelings faded. i cant accept the fact. i have never loved someone so dearly and i thought you are the right one for me. i suddenly felt so lost now.

seven weeks of waiting
your presences
feelings
love
all i could say is its all gone.

couples and friends arent the same.

but anyways, i respect your decision.