mood swing.
very emotional lately.
can be crying now
& the next moment laughing like nobody's business.
i know what is the conquences of emo-ing too long.
that why i wont but try t find place or ppl t brighten up myself.

every smiley face behind hides a crying face.
because looks are deceiving.
at least t me.

if you wanna try t talking some sense into me
because of my msn nick,
& if i cant change it
then forget about talking some sense into me.
don't waste your breath k?
i appreciate your kindness.

im glad that i've got some place where i can find my emotional support from.
at least for that moment, i know i'm off the trouble
& people wont give me those funny looks or eye sight( yan guan )
i don't mind people asking me what happen
& i will tell.
but i just don't like people talking behind me
assuming that they know what going on in my life.
& giving me that yan guan that i don't like.
cause it just simpathy & pity.
i don't wish t be treated like a weirdo again.

finding people that understand how i felt is really great.
we encourage each other t continue moving on.
that kind of feeling is really good.

i know some people are worried that i might get over-tired.
& i can tell you guys that i won't mind getting tired.
at least i won't think of those negative things
but just KO when i reach home.
its called 精神寄托。
the people that is always making me laugh and stuff.
& in process i learn at lot from them.
im looking forward t every gathering or even random meetings with them.
thanks guys.
*not sure if they all reads this. but hope they do.

birthday is coming up.
got plans for days before alr.
friday meeting bestie for sentosa
sat meeting KLF for birthday celebrations as requested by johnson
while sunday, i was planning either t
stay at home & be pig
OR
t go accompany my mama.
cause i dont know what i want for my birthday.
nothing special too.
happy is happy.
but then sad also
since the one who always make it a point t celebrate it for me
but i always turned it down & disappoint her no longer ard.
furthermore she's the one who bring me t this earth on that day.
given me something called birthday.