i cried all day ytd.
especially after i had a conversation with someone.
its because i missed my mum badly.
and i felt guilty as it has become a lifetime regret.
its too late t apologise now.
there's nothng that i or anyone of you can do.
but i blame no one except for myself.
all because of the choices that i've made.
choosing friends over mum;
whenever she needs me.

i cried till i fall asleep.
then got bestie very angry.
because she waited for me
& missed call me for like 15over times.
n explainations was given t her.
sorry was the only word i wanted t tell her.
but i gave her my silences.

im sorry if i didnt reply you in anyway.
but then i just felt maybe its time t end it.
without us,
you guys wont have t be broke,
quarrel or letting your mum worried,
dont have t speak up for us
or even sacrifice all your favourites.
neither does any of you have t be heartbroken

just let things this way.
im glad t have known you guys.
but the trouble is enough.
or just the g will be gone forever.
you guys dont know how i felt.
i just surppressed everything inside me.
always because of feeling things,
then say want disappear or mia
but then when i felt this way,
you all tell me not t do
cause dont want t break things the way it was
but then i had enough of all these.
you guys said it was already settled.
but why are there still twist & turns?
just because feelings cant be control?
fuckit.
leave me out of all these.
please?
for this i beg you guys.

i really missed my mum badly.
i waited for her t come back on 7th.
but yet nobody seems t have sense it.
neither did she let us dream of her.
i got so much i wanna talk t her about.
but the most important things of all is
i wanna say that i'm sorry.