what should i be doing now?

i have been living and coping well with life now.
but a bomb just drop on me and now i felt so guilty.
i took so much courage just to make a decision.
now you make me wavier again.

what should i do?
which is the best option?
i dont want to break down again.

tell me what to choose.

just take it that i am just a bitch pls if this will make you feel better.