i've got so much running thru my mind now,
but they are all bits and pieces.


well, my temper wasnt good these few days.
maybe because i dont wanna be the same old gio again,
to be tolerate or keep things to myself & even blaming myself.

everything seems to be bothering me.
while i am in the mist of healing, i got to go and heal other.
but others just treat me like shit.

in another saying, people say that i am selfish.
i dont give them a second chance & only think about myself.
& thus, i became that bitch in their eyes.
i guess they are right.
or maybe they are not.
idk.

i always did the same thing over & over again;
which is to cfm something and last min change my mind again.
in many many case, applicable to many many people.
i felt bad about it.
maybe this is just me.
forgive me please.

i went to club again even though i said i not going.
its been a long long time since i last went clubbing.
but this time round, drinking was involved.
different experiences, with different people.
but i loved this kind of feeling.

never had i once felt clubbing so safely & crazy before.
even though i felt high after that shot i took tgt with BIGS,
i choose t keep it t myself.
cause i dont want to spoil the fun
&& i can still take it.

dance dance dance, drink drink drink.
there's control & concerns out there this time.
some might think that i am just ruin myself this way,
this is one of the ways i go of myself freely.

im sorry if i hurt or make people worry ytd
like bestie, bronson & shaun.
i know i did abit too over in many ways.
but i know my limits for some things.
anw, im just sorry.
thanks for tolerating me.

t you
i know i bite, i wack, i scratch, i hit, i punch, i shout etc at you
all i can say is thank you so much.
you are deeply appreciated.
you make sure that i am safe when i club,
asking me stupid things just to make sure i am ok,
making sure that i reach home safely even though i said im alrights
and most imptly, tolerating my nonsense.
im touched by those actions.

t others,
if you see me in person,
dont ask me t tell you what's going on with me.
cause i will not tell you.
what you can read from here, is what you can know.


i know for this few weeks,
i've been rather wilful and tempermental.
pardon me alrights?
i finally can let down my mask,
in searching of what i want my face t be,
cause i got no idea what i want my face t be
beside that mask i got to put up in front of everyone.

anw, i just need some where to rant
so its this blog of mine(: