tired.

went studying with bestie and her sis on tuesday. needed bestie to teach me BS since my exam is like next week. but then ended up only went to there to use our laptop since bestie didnt have the mood to study after her sis went off just like that. so we played online games, view people's blog and frienster profile and even download songs there. but the connection there is really bad lahs.

bestie and i went off and then find people out for supper and then we chat at the coffeeshop while eating supper. she went home with me and stay-over at my house. LOL! this is her first time staying over at my house lahs. then we had heart to heart talk since there are some problems that we are facing which are similar. and we had the same kind of answer to those problems. but my problems are easier to solve than hers.

woke up at noon yesterday. then slack at home with bestie. she was feeling well. headache. as usual. so we rush off to polyclinic to see doctor. we are just in time before polyclinic closed. but we waited for damn long lo. for one hour just to see that doctor and we are the last one. fun singing while waiting for her turn. then went to print her notes so that she could study for her exam.

she went home pretty late cause she went to meet her friend somewhere near school. i thought she go home will sleep early since she said she was having headache. but then i receive a call from her that she will be coming over and stay over at my house again for the night. asked her what happen then she said cause her sister. but i thought that nothing le cause she going for shower then come over my house.

the next moment i received a call from her mum. got a shock. cause her mum say bestie run out of the house saying that she wanna go commit suicide. scared me lahs. so her mum called to ask me check out on bestie where she is and make sure she doesnt do anything silly. i hanged up and called bestie on her mobile to check out where is she. she just kept saying somewhere when i asked her where she was. and said all she wants was to get bang by a vehicle lo.

wah. damn emo lo. out of a sudden she seems to be part of the emo gang. i was so worried sick that i rush out of my house and cabbed down to look for her even though i didnt know where she was. kept calling her but she didnt pick up the calls. but thank god i found her by accident. followed her so as to make sure that she doesnt do anything foolish. ended up at a playground where bestie wants to lie down. cause her headaches really hurts to the point whereby the veins are like popping out. its like its going to burst any moment.

sent her home and the whole family started quarreling. LOL! its my first time seeing them quarrel and that its so serious lahs. even though i stayed over at bestie's house for so many times. but i only can come up with one conclusion. which is that parents suffer when siblings quarrel among themselves. i see that in her family and its reminds me that i used to quarrel with my sister like bestie does and gives my mum headaches too.

anways, i was viewing shuyi's blog and i happen to see this picture that i was looking for it for quite some ime le. its our green group picture after FO 07/08 at cpf building. wah. miss those time. cant wait for the outing on 16june. then can gather with greenies and go crazy with them like we always do. LOL!

i hate that lonelines and emptiness in me. i dont know how to cope with it. i tried using many ways so that i wont be feeling that loneliness and emptiness in me so strongly. can anyone tell me what to do? how to manage my feelings?