sleepless night again. couldnt sleep but yet i dont have the sleeping pills that the doctor prescribe for me. cause reason being my mum holds my medicine and that she will give me what i have to take.

anyways, my hospital bills is here. guess how much it cost for the stay of one week? LOL! its 2000plus without government subsidise. so the amount payable was like 800plus in total. well, apparently mum say that this kind of money spent its okies and its inevitable so just take it to learnt a lesson. but i know she is saying that cause she doesnt want to feel bad or guilty and not to even rake the past and move on with my life.

i do feel guilty about making my mum and people that cares for me worried for me. its really surprised me when people whom i wasnt close with or that people who used to get whack from me are concern about me when they heard and know that i was hospitalised even after i was discharged. this shows that they actually cares for me as a friend. through this whole incident, i also see what are true friends and who they are.

i am indulging myself in the whole of music especially chinese song. and sometime i really like the lyric of certain songs cause either i feels like the song lyric just suit the feeling that i am in or i find that the lyric of the song meaningful. heres some that i like and would like to share.

美人鱼

歌手：徐若瑄

我是一条没有人养的鱼
背着自由面无表情
彩色眼睛受伤的心
只有看到黑白的你
我像一条没有人养的鱼
我的悲伤你不在意
说过的话飘过脸颊
我无法挥去一切从新再来

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

你的温柔总是来了又去
我的孤单(不稀罕同情)
你的电话忍住不打我
不想变成习惯等你回来

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼

舍不得我为什么说再见
能不能收回我说的每一句话
舍不得我为什么不忘记
做一条快乐美人鱼
游向幸福的大海里

我想要说

歌手：蔡昮佑

看着右手被撕裂的伤口
爱好像曾经停留
而我左手按下号码之后
那首属于我的歌不再播送
默写你的爱过
坦承自己脆弱
对白怎么说表情才不难过

我想要说
如果没有了你
我该如何往下走
那一秒钟有没有发现我
倔强里的问候
怎么劝我放手
在这一切之后
整夜的风冷得我手颤抖
你在温暖的那头
熟悉路口再一次的路过
等在那角落的人已不是我
在这一切