today. oh man. its suck.

OB lecturer is really irritating lahs. hais. no choice still must attend. projects due on tuesday. no time liao le. now i finally have the sense of urgency.

super tired today. d fetched me to school. talked on msn in class and even sms. borrowed books from the library on OB, then carry jon's super heavy laptop when he pon school lahs. went to besite's house and she passed me her BS textbook lo. wah. on the way there i overslept on the train and missed the station lahs. hais. im really tired.

went to airport for interview and lunch. lots of memories there. sister rose and JR. i start to miss him as in i sh he were there cause i was still dwelling in memories. interview wasnt too bad for me lahs, i guess? but bestie didnt want that job anymore even if they call us up again for second interview.

then went bugis and sim lim sq cause bestie needs to get printer ink. memories flow thru my mind too. then when i really misses him lots, he called to get back the disc but i was outside not near home. so cant meet him. sad.

then msg d throughout the day and i felt really bad but i guess things are getting on far too rushy too. its kinda stressing me up and then i seriously slowly sung into emo. he's treating real nice to the point whereby he's like rushing me into another relationship lahs. though i told him he could stand a high chance but also told him that i need time cause i am not prepared to go into another one soon.though he is willing to wait but i dont wanna hurt him in any ways. i dont know how to face him lahs. hais.

i so wanna tempt bestie but think of nothings. and my head hurts like nuts now. terrible. i ddint mean to be emo, just that things are really stressing me up and i misses him badly especially those memories that we had. though i know my heart already dead that very day. just still holding on to those memories. i am feeling lost on this planet and that the emptiness i used to have is back with me again. i hate this feeling.

sleeping pills time. need more of it. cant take it anymore.