hmm. haven been blogging ever since i came back from the hospital. partly cause i was lazy while another reason was mum ansd sis was busy monitoring my every moves including blogging. so its kinda feels weird to have lots of people looking at you blog,right?
okies. now lets me briefly talk about my one week stay at TTSH then.was admitted to TTSH on 19may satursday midnight till 26may saturday afternoon then got discharged. Reason? simple. overdosage of sleeping pills. not to committe suicide. but to them(family and doctors), i am. all i wanted is sleep cause i didnt wanted to think about stuff anymore. didnt expected things would turn out this way. after this stay in the hospital, sort out majority of my thinking with the help of psychologist, occupational therapist, family, friends and bestie. but still need to go back to see the psychologist, Dr Tham.
the stay at TTSH wasnt too bad at first cause i thought i would only be staying for few days then i will be discharged le. but then things wasnt what i expected lahs. day after day, packets of drips(Sodium Chloride) for the first three days. and i even counted that i had a total of SEVEN packets of drips lahs. OMG! next thing i realised was that they took four syringes of blood for blood test. somemore they did dont know what ECG test for my heart cause they say my heart was affected. so it just means that i almost died but luckily i was dent to the hospital earlier enough.
then jon lend me his laptop actually to do my project when i am in the hospital but ended up installing games for me to kill time and boredom. brandon got me games to install into jon's laptop. they got me chocz's chocolate and after eight chocolate too. so sweet and nice of them(: mum and sis got me magazine and my course book. bestie came down almost everyday unless she has practices. once she came with PingPing. godma whole family came, big uncle and second uncle came. sis and mum came everyday lahs. mum even stayed overnight with me on friday when i was bothering her about asking the doctor to discharged me but its seems like she doesnt want me to be discharged casue she thinks im still not okies
Dr Tham agreed to discharge me with the condition that i have to not do anything foolish and go back for appointment on wednesday. then on monday and tuesday i am supposed to plan my day and go according to it no matter what my mood was.
life there in TTSH is kinda boring cause i am liek sleeping everyday and i skip the meals cause its suck. i had a whole collection of the pictures of the food that they served me lo. as you know its rather boring there so i just thought of taking picture so that i can blog it. then you guys can see how disgusting the food are to the point whereby you dont feel like eating lah. thank god i am not restricted to any food and luckily there was a food court downstairs. but i dont eat much too lahs. that why i realised that i lose weight even without weighing. ^^
discharged on satursday then went home to rest cause just kinda feel tired lahs. then dont feel like going anywhere besides home. i can be just lying on the bed doing nothing, thinking of nothing just like staring into blank. nowadays i would be stoning i guess. since friends says that. hais. but dont know why i am becoming llike this. but slowly back to who i used to be le bahs. life still needs to get on. after this thing, my heart is dead as in literally. maybe i just need to wait for that someone with that ability to revive my heart back bahs.
its a sad thing to know that he throw away that ring into the drain when we are just over less that a month. disappointed and heartbreaking but no use lahs. the ring is yours what. from what you are doing, its just shows that you doesnt want anything got to do with me including the memories just like you deleted me off friendster and throw that ring away. but i respect your decision. afterall, i never hated you from start. you are the first guy that i loved and be with so i cant bear to hate you lahs, seriously speaking. maybe that's why i coulf put you down easily just like your ex did?
to me, Rong is a nice guy. nothing bad that i can say about him. i am saying this not because i still want to patch or anything but just to make an end to one of my most treasured memories. from the day i knew him, he's very sweet and considerate. sensative by nature and forgives others easily. get along well with others- socialable and friendly. always giving in to others he could. he's also talent but in the area of music especially bass and getting private pilot licences at such young age. he is definately not those kind of guys that are Da Nan Ren Zhu Yi. And most importantly, he treats his friends very well and nice. he has a very nice family too. that treats me very well although i dont know them well. that family makes me feel like starting a new family at young age. cause i could feel the family warmth that i longed for it since young.
thanks Rong for everything. really appreaciate all that you've done and all the memories you have given me during those short period of time. i will treasure them cause they are precious to me.
okies. finally finish watching movie with bestie.
well, yesterday was suppopsed to be going for klunch with bestie but then didnt cause we both overslept. so we follow up with window shopping but then some mum and sis tagged along. meet at bugis at four then ended up me shopping only while bestie window shopping. hmm. we headed to chinatown cause we didnt want to go to town since we are going to town the next day. shop around just to kill time. till one point whereby we want to have deserts but we walked the whole people's park complex just to search for one pathetic desert stall. at last we found had soursops that we both craving for.
then we headed down to town just to meet Caleb Chia since we also got nothing to do. really big shot i should say. cause bestie and i avoided going to town as we already planned to go town the next day. i must say its been a long time since i last see him and i must say he changed into a more 'decent' person now as compared to one year plus ago. we sat at that same place where we first met although not same table but still, all memories are being brought back. had really good laugh yesterday just cause of Caleb. thanks. havent had good laugh for a long time.
today i made bestie waited for me again as i was late. Opps. Sorry. she waited for me at mushroom in tp. even though she gave me morning call, bubt still woke up late cause i went back to sleep. anyways, i rushed out of the house to meet bestie and collected her laptop at ENG. then we met jaz for lunch at BIZ Park. waited for very long just for that Hor-Fan that doesnt taste nice.
btw, today was just a MEET-MEET day for me. first i saw Shenglong at the bridge, Kenny in front of ENG, Raazmy in ENG while bestie is unpacking her stuff. More when i walked into BUS. Jessybessy was the first one i saw, then Liyi but just say hi since she rushing to class. Saw Shawn.Tan, TatYi, ZhiHao, Jereborne, Samantha(GL), Derek.Wang, Aaron.Teo at the BIZ Park. after that we meet OnYi on the bus heading towards town.
on the bus, we heard this primary school kids singing their school song. then bestie felt so familiar and start singing along with them. but i was curious how come bestie knew that song and the next moment she told me it was bendmeer's school song. i guess its the primary school one. suddenly we thought of our primary school song but yet we cant remember a single thing lahs. called our sister and asked but no avail. its very contridicting that bestie remembers other primary school's school song but yet forgets her own one. lols.
bought movie tickets for Amazing Grace at six at Lido cineplex. then went to Mac cafe to use laptop since there is wireless network. so i started blogging while viewing other people's blog at the same time. then went to put the laptop with Caleb before going for movie. Almost wasted the movie tickets cause quarrel with bestie over a joke that she thinks its not funny. but we ended laughing when we see each other. so missed the first part like that. i know its abit dots lahs but its just us.
Amazing Grace was thumbs up. i would recommand people to watch especially kai. no idea why but just thought of asking kai to watch this show. its really good. touching and meaningful. the movie was from a true story of william wilberforce. and i only got one word for him- RESPECT. even though i know this song since i was in primary school, never felt tired of hearing and singing this old hymm and i especially love the song and the lyrics as sang and played in the movie.
Amazing grace,
How sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, i see.
went to eat mee sua with bestie at far east plaza. i have been craving for it for days already. and it brought back memories too whereby i bought mee sua and waited for him at the bus stop that he will alight at and walk home together. it didnt happen long ago but just memories. anyways, bestie got asked for number again. they look really young. but didnt really take note of that guy that wanted bestie's number cause he was too shy. but bestie rejected his friend when his friend ask for bestie's number on his behalf. bestie realised that she missed the chance when we saw that shy guy. he look not bad but didnt have a closer look lahs.
hmm. no plans for tmr yet. but just starting maybe. or go The Top Table for lunch. not confirm. but i am supposed to plan my day and follow it no matter what happens. Opps. better not let Dr Tham know about it.
i am happy girl(:
*Ps: got lots of pictures to upload but will be soon. need to transfer them from my phone to comp.
okies. now lets me briefly talk about my one week stay at TTSH then.was admitted to TTSH on 19may satursday midnight till 26may saturday afternoon then got discharged. Reason? simple. overdosage of sleeping pills. not to committe suicide. but to them(family and doctors), i am. all i wanted is sleep cause i didnt wanted to think about stuff anymore. didnt expected things would turn out this way. after this stay in the hospital, sort out majority of my thinking with the help of psychologist, occupational therapist, family, friends and bestie. but still need to go back to see the psychologist, Dr Tham.
the stay at TTSH wasnt too bad at first cause i thought i would only be staying for few days then i will be discharged le. but then things wasnt what i expected lahs. day after day, packets of drips(Sodium Chloride) for the first three days. and i even counted that i had a total of SEVEN packets of drips lahs. OMG! next thing i realised was that they took four syringes of blood for blood test. somemore they did dont know what ECG test for my heart cause they say my heart was affected. so it just means that i almost died but luckily i was dent to the hospital earlier enough.
then jon lend me his laptop actually to do my project when i am in the hospital but ended up installing games for me to kill time and boredom. brandon got me games to install into jon's laptop. they got me chocz's chocolate and after eight chocolate too. so sweet and nice of them(: mum and sis got me magazine and my course book. bestie came down almost everyday unless she has practices. once she came with PingPing. godma whole family came, big uncle and second uncle came. sis and mum came everyday lahs. mum even stayed overnight with me on friday when i was bothering her about asking the doctor to discharged me but its seems like she doesnt want me to be discharged casue she thinks im still not okies
Dr Tham agreed to discharge me with the condition that i have to not do anything foolish and go back for appointment on wednesday. then on monday and tuesday i am supposed to plan my day and go according to it no matter what my mood was.
life there in TTSH is kinda boring cause i am liek sleeping everyday and i skip the meals cause its suck. i had a whole collection of the pictures of the food that they served me lo. as you know its rather boring there so i just thought of taking picture so that i can blog it. then you guys can see how disgusting the food are to the point whereby you dont feel like eating lah. thank god i am not restricted to any food and luckily there was a food court downstairs. but i dont eat much too lahs. that why i realised that i lose weight even without weighing. ^^
discharged on satursday then went home to rest cause just kinda feel tired lahs. then dont feel like going anywhere besides home. i can be just lying on the bed doing nothing, thinking of nothing just like staring into blank. nowadays i would be stoning i guess. since friends says that. hais. but dont know why i am becoming llike this. but slowly back to who i used to be le bahs. life still needs to get on. after this thing, my heart is dead as in literally. maybe i just need to wait for that someone with that ability to revive my heart back bahs.
its a sad thing to know that he throw away that ring into the drain when we are just over less that a month. disappointed and heartbreaking but no use lahs. the ring is yours what. from what you are doing, its just shows that you doesnt want anything got to do with me including the memories just like you deleted me off friendster and throw that ring away. but i respect your decision. afterall, i never hated you from start. you are the first guy that i loved and be with so i cant bear to hate you lahs, seriously speaking. maybe that's why i coulf put you down easily just like your ex did?
to me, Rong is a nice guy. nothing bad that i can say about him. i am saying this not because i still want to patch or anything but just to make an end to one of my most treasured memories. from the day i knew him, he's very sweet and considerate. sensative by nature and forgives others easily. get along well with others- socialable and friendly. always giving in to others he could. he's also talent but in the area of music especially bass and getting private pilot licences at such young age. he is definately not those kind of guys that are Da Nan Ren Zhu Yi. And most importantly, he treats his friends very well and nice. he has a very nice family too. that treats me very well although i dont know them well. that family makes me feel like starting a new family at young age. cause i could feel the family warmth that i longed for it since young.
thanks Rong for everything. really appreaciate all that you've done and all the memories you have given me during those short period of time. i will treasure them cause they are precious to me.
okies. finally finish watching movie with bestie.
well, yesterday was suppopsed to be going for klunch with bestie but then didnt cause we both overslept. so we follow up with window shopping but then some mum and sis tagged along. meet at bugis at four then ended up me shopping only while bestie window shopping. hmm. we headed to chinatown cause we didnt want to go to town since we are going to town the next day. shop around just to kill time. till one point whereby we want to have deserts but we walked the whole people's park complex just to search for one pathetic desert stall. at last we found had soursops that we both craving for.
then we headed down to town just to meet Caleb Chia since we also got nothing to do. really big shot i should say. cause bestie and i avoided going to town as we already planned to go town the next day. i must say its been a long time since i last see him and i must say he changed into a more 'decent' person now as compared to one year plus ago. we sat at that same place where we first met although not same table but still, all memories are being brought back. had really good laugh yesterday just cause of Caleb. thanks. havent had good laugh for a long time.
today i made bestie waited for me again as i was late. Opps. Sorry. she waited for me at mushroom in tp. even though she gave me morning call, bubt still woke up late cause i went back to sleep. anyways, i rushed out of the house to meet bestie and collected her laptop at ENG. then we met jaz for lunch at BIZ Park. waited for very long just for that Hor-Fan that doesnt taste nice.
btw, today was just a MEET-MEET day for me. first i saw Shenglong at the bridge, Kenny in front of ENG, Raazmy in ENG while bestie is unpacking her stuff. More when i walked into BUS. Jessybessy was the first one i saw, then Liyi but just say hi since she rushing to class. Saw Shawn.Tan, TatYi, ZhiHao, Jereborne, Samantha(GL), Derek.Wang, Aaron.Teo at the BIZ Park. after that we meet OnYi on the bus heading towards town.
on the bus, we heard this primary school kids singing their school song. then bestie felt so familiar and start singing along with them. but i was curious how come bestie knew that song and the next moment she told me it was bendmeer's school song. i guess its the primary school one. suddenly we thought of our primary school song but yet we cant remember a single thing lahs. called our sister and asked but no avail. its very contridicting that bestie remembers other primary school's school song but yet forgets her own one. lols.
bought movie tickets for Amazing Grace at six at Lido cineplex. then went to Mac cafe to use laptop since there is wireless network. so i started blogging while viewing other people's blog at the same time. then went to put the laptop with Caleb before going for movie. Almost wasted the movie tickets cause quarrel with bestie over a joke that she thinks its not funny. but we ended laughing when we see each other. so missed the first part like that. i know its abit dots lahs but its just us.
Amazing Grace was thumbs up. i would recommand people to watch especially kai. no idea why but just thought of asking kai to watch this show. its really good. touching and meaningful. the movie was from a true story of william wilberforce. and i only got one word for him- RESPECT. even though i know this song since i was in primary school, never felt tired of hearing and singing this old hymm and i especially love the song and the lyrics as sang and played in the movie.
Amazing grace,
How sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me.
I once was lost but now am found,
Was blind, but now, i see.
went to eat mee sua with bestie at far east plaza. i have been craving for it for days already. and it brought back memories too whereby i bought mee sua and waited for him at the bus stop that he will alight at and walk home together. it didnt happen long ago but just memories. anyways, bestie got asked for number again. they look really young. but didnt really take note of that guy that wanted bestie's number cause he was too shy. but bestie rejected his friend when his friend ask for bestie's number on his behalf. bestie realised that she missed the chance when we saw that shy guy. he look not bad but didnt have a closer look lahs.
hmm. no plans for tmr yet. but just starting maybe. or go The Top Table for lunch. not confirm. but i am supposed to plan my day and follow it no matter what happens. Opps. better not let Dr Tham know about it.
i am happy girl(:
*Ps: got lots of pictures to upload but will be soon. need to transfer them from my phone to comp.
