Random Thoughts.

Its been years since we part,
& we never contact ever since then.
but i just wanna say Happy 21st birthday JR.

& anyways, Happy belated 21st birthday Long.


i know both of them wont see this post with my wishes, but these two very special person that have been in my life before that's why i wanna wish them. just that i dont have the courage to wish them in person nor sms. & i dont see the need either actually.


I've been thinking a lot recently. without sister at home & long bus rides from school to home, with the raining weather just makes me think through many things. about the past, current & future. then i realized a lot of things, like the fact that i dont like to study, need do some financial planning, many things/friends have changed(well, i have to admit that i've changed too) etc. seriously, too many to keep me busy.


Studies, is something i know i have to complete now & that its a promise to mum, & seriously did try hard t study & even attending school. but i just dont know why i dont have the motivation. i just rather stay at home & study instead of going to school & meet people. dislike crowded places, dont like t entertain people.

I just enjoy staying at home in my own world.

im not trying to be emo again, neither am i emo elmo, so dont worry about me. just that i like to have time alone at time especially these few days when my sister isnt at home. too quiet till i will start t think of many things & even miss people like her, mum, kai.

on a lighter note, Kai is coming back tmr. & i will be going t fetch her since i miss her lot. but also cause i felt guilty not able to send her off when she leave for Shanghai. i saw her blog that day & i decide to give her a text just telling her that i miss her. when i went timbre on sat, i had lot of memories there with her & also about the days in hildan chorale with the rest. those were the days that we just spent time together singing & laughing our hearts out.

holidays upcoming. I just cant wait for holiday to come. everyone seems to be going overseas for vaction. & i also want to. just that i need to save up. there are many places i wanna go like Cambodia, Bkk, Taiwan, ShenZhen, Korean, HongKong, India, Vietnam etc. so many too name all man. but i need PARTNERS to go with me, if not it would be trip alone again. Anyone wanna go with me? Many people just say only but in real action, the day will never come man. sigh.


I am blessed with many family members to love me & dote on me. I've got my grandma, uncles, aunties, godpa, sister, cousins. sometimes i just take them for granted but deep down in my heart, i'm really grateful that i have them around me, though they dont say but i can feel their care & concerns. even my chinese birthday day, they also remember, just like mum did always.


I've got nothing much t complaint about in life. but more of adapting to life now, Making the best of out it. :)


& christmas is round the corner.
it's been my favourite festival & season always,
with all those christmas carols & friends accompanying me
but jsut not spending it alone.