Fuck it!
feeling damn sick & tired of all these shit
called life.
responsibility, money, studies, future
i dont like all these shit.

i hate depending on others.
even if it means t give up my studies.
i dont like t owe others.
just for my future.
neither would i want my sister t be in such a stage.
so i would do anything just t let her get the course or sch that she wants.

i hope my sister will think for herself.
work harder for her studies, be more mature
lighten my burden.
i dont wish t scold her or say her every time.
but just feel like she needs t know the reality of this world.

im doing badly in sch.
i did consider t give up studies
im continuing for the sake of my promise t mum.
but where do i get the money t complete it?
im half way there only.

some times i wish mum if mum was still around
how great would that be.
i just need her.

i miss ma.
badly~
:(