Im finally back home! Lol. Just. like how early.

i have been meeting people whom i haven seen for very long. some is really take the chance t meet up with them, while some is by chance i saw them but didnt call them t chat with them. then i felt like some people are those whom i really wanna meet before i leave for cambodia & shenzhen trip, like as though im dying so i wanan meet up with people whom i really treasure & wanna catch up with before i dont see them ever again.

Lol.

i saw & met up with people like
Christabel,
MelvinSim,
ZhiYu,
WeeHou,
Johan,
Andrew,
Matthew,
Cynthia,
YokeLian,
Lydia,
Sunshine,
Sabby,
Serene,
JacJac,
Xiang,
YanJun,
Guang,
Wayne,
Kailing,
Idiot,
etc

there are still people whom i wanna meet still, that i would really miss them like KLF, SOTONG, LAIYIN, YANQING, KATHERYN, AZIZUL, HUDA, MIRAH, NISHA, HONGYONG, FITRI, NYDIA etc. i hope t meet up with them and chill out before i leave. though is not for long but then its not v short either.

then jessica only told me that OMK & others saw me at TM on sat. but then i felt that they hor also dont bother t say hi one lo. tsk. friends must become like that one lo. xin han. Lol. why they like that ah?! xP

anw, i have chat a lot with Kai & even cynthia & yokelian too. really lo. i've heard different opinions on the situation that i've been thru & experiencing now. but it really set me thinking though. maybe he or she do something is just out t protect me? or maybe he or she did it t ruin me? its either one.

& i still think whatever im doing is right and best for myself. i guess i dont wanna fucking care about what others gonna think of me. even if they are commenting on what kind of person i am thru the actions im doing towards another person, i dont think it matters t me anymore. cause i know time will show that.

there's this 2guys that told me this, why must make things this way? cannot talk things out meh? but the fact is nobody want this t happen, yet when everything is being brought out t talk things out, i believe everyone should come clean if not that make no point in talking things out. which is why things landed up in this state.

i wont & will never ever say anythings about what happen t anyone t ruin people's reputation because we got too many common friends & it doesnt make me look good either. plus people may not believe me so i should just keep my mouth shut. i believe that person will show his or her true colours as time pass. that's what a lot of people is telling me. just live my life t the fullest, awaiting t see what happens. i dont have t say so much, nor explained t anyone.

t you:
you dont have much time left being out though. i wouldnt fall out with you cause of what happen neither would i blame you. its not your fault for causing what happen t this state. like i said, this whole incident was just a trigger but what really happen is the actions of someone i really treasure & care for turns out t something that really shocked me! i guess you made me see what a friend t me was or what i was t a friend. lesson learnt. as for whatever you think of me doesnt matter much now. but all i can say is that your idea/ thinking of valueing & retaining a friendship was what i used t have in the past. maybe someday you would understand how i felt or maybe never not. i dont know if you would still regard me as your friend or you may find that im not worth being a friend of yours, its your choice i can say. but you'll still be a friend t me. take care good care of yourself, my dear friend.