i actually wanted t blog something nice for this friend of mine who is going in army like tmr. but then something is wrong with blogger & the image cant upload. so forget it then. i shall text him before he go in t army tmr. so this small msg here is t tell him this cause i told him t come & read my blog tonight. Lol. Paiseh.

uncle is admitted into the same hospital as mum did. like a last minute thing. i may appear t be fine but then up till now, i dont dare t step into the hospital like i should. i know i should be brave lah. i think i just need time that's all. i would still need t go in afterall despite of all my fears. but i wont stay long there i supposed. a short visit and i'll go off.

i've been nua-ing at home for ytd & today. well, it been dont know how long i nua at home whole day without going out. but im going t go out t grandma house since she called me early this morning. i supposed i know what she wants of me. hahas. i was back t those secondary school days where i watch dramas from day t night. complete whole series in like just one or two days time. back then was cause i wasnt allow t go out but now is i dont wish t go out.

long holiday and im quite bored with it. now that there isnt much deployment alr, & worse is totally no deployment for weekdays. that is why im damn bored at home. friends around me are like not free cause they are mostly mugging or either working on attachement. sigh. im bored just like kai is. so i thought of getting another job now. like back t the same line. working at clinic during weekdays but i scare i wont have time for myself again. hmm. still thinking though.

anw, im not emo or what. i may have sounded sad for my post earlier on but nah, the emo me have alr passed. it wont happen t me again because i've learnt and grown up. i've alr seen thru it all, so i wont take it t heart so much & be contented with life now. appreciate all those around me, & not dwell into the past of what has alr happened but look forward. im holding on t this optimistic side of me cause that what people around told me t which is my mum, family & friends.

i love them all!(: