i wanted t post some pictures in this post.but then, due t some reasons, i gave up the idea of posting. shall do it next time post or something.

headache.
super terrible bad headache.

i suspect Migraine is back. if it does then that's it alr. no amount of panadol or paracetamol would help at all. damnit. i thought it was just slight headache while i was at work just now. while was on the way home, i got worse. t the extend i wanted t bang my head against the wall t make myself feel better. it hurt so badly till the point whereby i cried and also cause i miss ma. then i tot maybe if i napped awhile i would feel better but then now that i woke up alr, the pain is still there. nothing helps.

sudden thought across my mind. normally if i go visit my doctor, be it my boss or family doctor, regarding my headache, they would ask me one thing- "did i knock or injuried my head lately?" and i did. i have been knocking my head lately accidentally. jialat.

Missed calls from people. wanna jio me go MJ somemore. HAHA. nice tot but then wrong timing lo. if not i sure go even though they called me at midnight. somemore tmr still got last UT before holidays arrive. cant wait. somemore tmr got a lot of event. wont have enough rest one lo. i hope for a good day without all these pains and lots of energy.

i finally told my boss in advance that im quiting. that's something for sure. he's gonna release me from work starting of 2009. which means i am much more free when the new year starts. got alot of things t settle blah blah blah. though they felt that its a pity that i had t leave, but then, ya. i know they have been treating me good but i guess i really need time for myself. i dont think i want t tire our myself after doing so and making myself sick and stressed up. plus i know there will be lots of things coming up too. and this is the first step im making t sort out my life.

looking back, i have been working in clinic for 8months? they trained me since i've got no experiences in this line at all. colleagues are really nice and they treat me like their daughter cause their children are all either married or 20plus 30 alr. and i have indeed learned alot of things from them, being it in work or life. i guess they must have felt as though i bastard them cause i have finally learned all the things in clinic and then i said i want t resign. that's something i felt bad about. especially thru my mum's incident. doctor offered me great help. all i can say is THANK YOU! (:

i dont know what happen but i dont think i wish t know anymore. receiving that kind of text/replies would just make me feel that its a relief that i didnt choose anyone of you. replies from ytd makes me feel that you are different from others but then actually you are not. but it wont make me feel bad anymore at least. i wanted t bastard ppl but now that we have made things cleared, i can just leave without informing. well, i wont blame you for choosing it this way cause i gave you a chance t. what disappoint me is the kind of replies you gave within two days. LOL! they are just jokes man! anw, goodbyes.

sick and tired of all these lies and sweet talking. i have learn my mistakes even though i haven been through a lot of rs. but what matter most is not how many but every mistake made, i dont wish t make the same again. this is what i told myself and even ma. i dont wanna be a dumb dumb and let people play around. all i ever wanted was someone t love me wholeheartedly, caring and understanding me. its gonna take a long long time before i meet one. another thing is i loathe people t take me as a shield t make themselves look good in front of their friends as though im so shuai bian like pei ke like that.

hais. in short, guys are just nothing but *toot*

now i got a sudden urge t leave Singapore. but i know i will miss home. and something's for sure is that i will not mirgate t somewhere even if i have the chance t. because i dont wanna leave my mama here alone. i will miss her. actually i did gave it a thought about leaving Sg with bestie t stay for month in Malaysia. cut off all connections in Sg just for that few months. still having serious considerations. but well, i wanna go somewhere else too. TAIWAN or HONGKONG would be good next year. finding Khakis in progress. ffy is approached and he's fine with it. (:

ohya. i just know that ffy stayed near me. we are just one short apart. and that school is freaking big. well, its good t know people staying near or around me. at least got people t go back with is damn nice instead of going home alone late night like after MJ session or pubbing. hahas.

i also want a baobei.
(bestie knows what i mean)

pamper me please Santa.
(: