at first i got so much t say.
like my day, my thoughts and stuff.
but then i heard somethings from my sister.
then it reminds me of my mum.
and the fact that i will be living with my step mum.
like soon.
real soon.
got a lot of things i got t learn t tolerate
because im staying with dad & her.
afterall, she's not my biological mum.
i can expect she wont treat me like her own?
then i came t this conclusion:
which is either i feel like dying earlier
or i faster grow up and move out on my own.
dying earlier maybe one of the ways t escape.
but then its one of the best way.
cause im seriously v tired
with those burdens.
i've got a lot t carry as each day passed by.
that why i would rather choose t appear like a small girl
cause i dont have that childhood.
of being a carefree small girl.
but was force t accept those things called truth
by reality.
its too harsh.
its rather common for people t die early.
i've met some alr.
but its not that i dont treasure my life.
its just that i've been trying
yet, it just makes me more tired.
i really feel like giving up.
ending my life just like that.
dying now.
i hate the kind of life im leading now.
& worse part is i dont know what i want too.
how i wish i never come t this earth before?
why does all this happen t me?
WHY did mum left me alone here.
t endure with all this.
i shouldnt have been save from that incident.
i hope my life marks an end soon.
real soon i mean.


okay. this is just a random post.