i know you dont want a repeat of what happen one year ago.
i just want t assure you that it wont.
cause it not worth it at all.
but currently idk how to face it.
haven found something suitable.

one thing for sure is that i will face it with a smile now
since idk how t face it.
& plus i dont want t affect ppl ard me.
it will have the before & after effects.
which i so dont want to talk abt it.

maybe this is what you call denial.
i just wanna hide myself.
for many reasons.
under different mask;
to protect myself for all those unforseen circumstances.

i want t be stronger
not as a weakling.
i hate t be left alone;
just like that way many did t me.
so i would choose to leave others,
rather than others leaving me.
i may be selfish in some eyes;
but im sure there are others that will agree with it.

i cant satistified everyone,
but what matter most is i can account for myself.

keeping things to myself is surely the best option.
though i know what are the consequences
that i have learn last year;
it just that i got to handle it properly
just in case if i have;
choose something wrongly at the crossroads.

classmates are sweet.
they would tell me that im badly missed.
& ask me how am i.
just because i hardly go for classes these days.
*hugs*