i've decided to only let certain people read my blog cause of some unwanted pest that are reading my blog and they are freaking irriating. i've got enough of them so yupps. its time to do something to my blog and shoo them off my own life.

i've already got so much things in my head and its bothering me like shit. be it work, family, friends blah blah blah. . . nothing seems right. i haven done things to offend people but yet they must come and find fault with me. i've got a bad temper inherited from my dad. and i tend to get very easily pissed off and agitated. i know when i get agitated, i will just raise my voice but i am sure that i didnt raise my voice at her. i admit is my fault for saying such harsh words but the party didnt say anything but some outsider just came and talk so much. what's wrong with you? have you got nothing better to do? this is my life and get out of mine cause i really dont want any trouble from you!

i thought we knew each other long enough and you could understand me well. but then i start to waver now. having own bf to scold own bff is something that i would never do even though i know my own bf's temper. and because i know my bf's temper, i would never let him do something or say something to hurt bff. but in any case i dont blame him cause i am just a cb kia. maybe he was right. i guess our distance between each another has driften apart without us realising. we just need time bahs.

i am now badly woundly by many different people including my own family members. they just want me to die bahs. if its the case, then they shouldnt have ask the doctor to save me when i was admitted to the hospital six months back.

okies. to be honest i am really very pessimistic about life now. i feel like crying but then i dont want to get my mood worse when i spent six months just to get my mood and everything back to normal. but crying doesnt help me in anything.

can i find an answer soon to solve my problems and let me be just the happy girl once again?