i am falling soon.
will anyone of you catch me?
BFF?
Kai?
Sotong?
Loves?

but there are certain things that cant be said to you guys now. but i really need to get it off my chest. and i dont want to always trouble people especially when i am troubled and stuff. then just PS them when having fun. hence i dont you guys to think that i treat people for granted and just used them.

AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

every action i do must be careful so that i wont hurt anyone. but its seems like the more i tried, the more i am hurting others badly unknowingly. this feeling is bad. and its TERRIBLE. i totally hate this. this kind of me. i cant voice out things to others and neither can it on this blog. i so wish to tell this to dd but then i cant.

i dont mean it. it makes me feels really bad and guilty and tears starts rolling down like nobody's business again. i really dont know what to do. i am lost. confused. guilty. i look down on myself. despise myself too.