one month passed.

fast. but this month is really a terrible month for me. its just simply means it marks the end of the journey of having you by my side. having to walk this journey without you and its also means to walk this journey alone by myself.

Maybe to you, this one month would be the best month of your life ever since you started off with me. you had freedom and most importantly, less trouble. i guess you are doing fine with your life ya? i cant imagine how i manage to survive through this past one month without you. but im glad now i know how to live my life to the fullest even without you.

i told myself to forget everything about you and start my life afresh but certain things are not easily forgotten. really hard. but i know i am trying my best. cause i know the best way to love you is to let you go. guess this is what i have learnt from this whole incident. i just couldnt forget that on the 9th may was the day that i was miserable terribly devastated after i received your msg.

though its not a day that i should be celebrating for but then its a day i my precious lesson was being taught. to learnt to walk alone on my journey without you. all along i always had the thinking/dream of walking hand in hand together with on our journey down the road but that very day, my thinking/dream was smashed. and its also a wake up call that these dreams and thinking are not realistic.

i guess i no longer believe that such things will ever happen especially things llike 'true love', 'forever', 'happy ever after' but more of like 'happily NEVER after'.

its time to be more realistic.

*emo*

but i will un-emo myself soon.