long day so its gonna be long post too. and i shall slowly update but this time round with more visuals since we camwhore so much throughout the day.

didnt sleep the whole night. woke bestie up and we met for movie at vivo. WOOTS! first time i'm earlier than her. but cause she's late, we had to watch a later time slot for the legend of the sea. sigh. watching movie at vivo really bring back lots of memories for bestie and me. and we really missed those days whereby we were with our love ones and their hugs while watching movie on different occasions. vivo really bring back lots of memories for me. those movie that i watch with him and those time spent together. i miss those hugs, the warmth and your company.

so while waiting for the movie, we went to food republic and YES! i had my wonderful kimchi soup. but as usual, i didnt finish my food. though its kinda wasteful but then i think its worth it. after that late lunch, bestie saw this red cow and she wanted to climb up on it but then she realise it wasnt stable and the crowd is looking. she misses marche and then i realise i haven been to marche for very very long. so that explains the kisses to the cows.

the movie wasnt that nice but one things for sure is that jj's voice is really cute.

saw sunshine while coming out of the toilet. OMG. im shocked to see her but really happy. she gave me a super big big hug that she wanted to give me. so sweet of her! love you babe. on the way to the bus interchange, i saw farhan(ophix GL). we got bored so we started to camWhore. supposed to take 65 home but i was dragging to go home early so i took bus home with bestie. CamWhore again on the bus till we got giddy.

while on the bus, we passed by clark quay. and we got really tempted. so we check with caleb if he could get tickets since it was so last minute. thank god we got the tickets. chiong to bestie's house so that she could get changed and everything. after that bestie's dad sent us to my house. quickly too a shower and get ready to leave the house before we missed the last bus and train.

ma is being so nice to sponsor us cab there but actually she doesnt know where we are actually going. Oops. i lied. reach MOS closed to midnight and guess what? the queue was super long la. thank goodness we saw eugene and manage to jump queue and get inside really soon. hahas. lucky us.

down to the dancefloor and we happen to be at this corner whereby there are lots of couples. i envy those couples there. and i swear that i would get my darling there with me to enjoy myself. i recalled that i was given a chance but then i didnt seize it. now i really regretted it when you once asked me to go along for clubbing. nothing could be done now cause its already a regret.

bloody hell. tio grind like shit. this made me realise how important it is to have friends especially guy friend along and how dangerous it is to go with just girl friends. cant take it anymore so we left and went to get drinks and too a break. Camwhore in the toilet. the lighting is really good lahs. LOL!

continue dancing but at different dancefloor. this time round got Caleb and his friends. when we got into the dancefloor for less than five minutes, we realised there is already guys behind targeting us. Phew. luckily got Caleb and friends. had lots of fun. and its really a good way of reliefing stress. get crazy there with bestieand dance like never before. throughout the whole session at the dancefloor, caleb's friend was all along behind me protecting me while caleb is behind bestie. thanks dude though i dont know you.

legs hurts like shit. went off around three plus with eugene but sat at clark quay resting our feets and realxing ourself. caleb and friends came to look for us and join us. crap, joke, play, suan ppl, listening to songs while people starts to get emo. caleb got emo and bestie went to talk things out with him. leaving me there with his friends that i dont know.

i became emo when songs are being played and truth i knows went through my mind. i cried. ever since i was discharged from the hospital, i haven been crying cause ma will get worried and that i couldnt cry out even though i am sad. i was just totally imune to crying. but i cried while lots of things are going through my mind.

i decided to go mos and spent the night like that is cause its the 13th. i wanted to give myself a break and never to think about those things that could only be memories. its just to numb myself from thinking of you and those sweet times and the hurts you had given me and that regret of mine to never had the chance to celebrate with you on that 'used-to-be' special day of ours. but i am clear now. regret will always be regrets. i should look forward, be optimistic. on the 13th its just three more months to bestie's birthday.

when bestie and caleb came back, it was my turn to clear doubts and things with bestie. things turn out bad and she just run off without shoes and hp. nothing with her. caleb stonned for one moment before running after her. tears started to flow down again on my cheeks so i didnt chase after her but to calm myself down. after awhile, Vincent treddy and me went to search for bestie and caleb. caleb is also another dumb ass la. dont know how to bring hp along.

walked rounds and rounds around clark quay. all thanks to VINCENT lahs. never check the bridge properly. still tell us he go to the bridge to search while treddy walk further up. search high and low just to look for bestie. even staircase and toilet. And i left the ring that was once important to me and i thought would be my one and only ring in one of the toilet. i was sober. that was the last thing that im holding on to but the thought that you throw yours away just like that makes me leave the ring there and walk away.

continue the search but ended up having Vincent to run maranthon, leaving me and treddy there until the phone call came. headed over to the bridge and we talk things out again. clarify things out without any lies. after the talk, we realised that caleb and vincent wasnt around but only treddy was there. so we put our heels there and tell him we'll be back. we race against each other. it feels really good to have a run early in the morning and i haven been running for very long le. next thing was we shouted along singapore river since there isnt a sea for us. freaking comfy. felt so much better. race back to the bridge.

drained all my energy and when bestie say let climb up the 'wall'(dont know what its called), the next moment she's already up on it. damn embarrassed when i tried to climb but ended up with that fall on my bum and kinda sprain my ankle. then i started laughing non-stop. as usual la. omg. that was freaking painful to fall hard on your bums. after trying for sometime, i manage to climb on it and rested there.

crap there etc. then suddenly either treddy or vincent said something about donut factory, makes bestie wanted to drag all of us to queue for donuts. funny lahs. so in the end, it ended up with treddy, vincent and caleb will queue while we just have to go down to take ove them the next time round. LOL! camwhore there since we were talking about suntaning at sentosa which is planned on next week. clark quay is really a nice place to be at be it in the night or morning. hahas. left there around nine. took bus to save money.

many thanks to treddy, vincent and caleb. Caleb especially. thanks for asking friends to protect us and look out for us. you made my first time clubbing really enjoyable cause i feel really safe and fun. almost forgot who i am le. LOL! and to that guy i dont know. thanks dude. hahas.

to him:

i guess you will read my blog and read this post but not sure if you will read this message since its at the end of my long post. i believe whatever we have done to each other or even to ourself have left that scar in our own individuals hearts. there's nothing we could do now since what is done is done. it only takes time to heal those scars and stop those pain. i know you will get out of it soon and you can. cause you got lots of friends that cares alot for you. dont drink so often cause drnking can be bad for health. but since you already decided to quit then i shant comment so much cause you always knows your limits. and if you love that somebody, please tell her straight and dont take others as substitute alrights? being loved by you is one of the most fortunate things a girl could every have. seriously. that's why i really envy that girl that's in your heart all these while. and its also one reason why i couldnt accept the fact that i've lost you even though i tried my very best to maintain our long distances rs when you were in aussie. and did those silly stuff. you never knew how importatnce was your appearance in my life that i never wanted to lose it. in the end, i still lose it. i was so bu gan yuan that i actually lost you and your heart to the girl that was all along in your heart. but those memories that we had together was the best gift you ever gave me. and i will treasure them inside my heart. most importantly, it cant be replaced by anyone or anything. that's one thing for sure. you are definitely one friend that i dont want to lose. i sincerely hope that we could still be friends but i guess you need time to accept it ya? so just lets nature takes its course and who knows we could be good friends etc.(my aim is abit too far lahs.)remember that you are never alone alrights. you have nice and caring family members that cares and love you lots. and i bet that nephew or niece of yours who will be on this earth soon will love you too. treasure your love.

to her:

i dont know if you will read this. but i just wanna say that rong is a nice guy that you shouldnt missed. although he's my ex, but i still hope he can find that girl inside his heart. and i guess its you. you know him longer than i do so i supposed you know him better than i do. and surely you can see and sense how he feel about you. i cant say much too but just hope you will treasure rong before you lose it and regret. here, i give you my blessings.