i was watching this drama just now. many things went through my mind.

its was about the misunderstandings of this couple&the amount trust that they have in each other.
i started reflecting back on my own relationship.

i must admit that i am someone that can get jealous very easily.
but that didnt cause me to lose trust in him.
until i sense something was wrong&it was pretty obvious that there was a 3rd party in our rs. then i started losing trust in our rs.

i have facts&evidences to prove that i was right about my 6th sense.
i didnt accuse you for nothing.
though its was partly my fault for this rs but you think i wanted things to happen like that?
i do feel guilty and bad for all the mistakes that i've done.
blamed myself for not seizing those given chances to me.

but did you know how heartless you were?
i did apologise to you for all the mistakes and even did what i could to salvage our rs.
have you reflected on what have you done?
can you swear that there wasnt a change in your love towards me ever since you came back?

you gave me your word that there wouldnt be others in your heart when you are in aussie.
And i trusted you whole heartedly without any doubt.
but what was the truth that i know-feelings faded, a third party.
or i suppose i was the third party?

you think i really wanted to lose you, my loved one?
Nope. not at all have i ever thought about that.
never have i thought of letting go of your hands ever since i hold on to it.
but you let go.

you gave me hope that there's a possibility that we could start all over again.
i know you well enough so i know that there isnt a chance to start all over again.
its just you, you wont turn back.
that's why i couldnt accept the fact and carry on with my life.

in this whole thing, we are both a victim.
and both a culprit.
i admit my mistakes in this case
but have you?

all these questions are just going to be doubts,
no one could give me an answer but only you.
but those answer, i wont ever get to know them.
cause there isnt a way for me to know those long-awaited answers.

maybe to you, all these words are just trying to gain sympthy from others
but they are from the bottom of my heart.
you just not going to understand the real meaning of this text
and misunderstand all the meanings.

cause to you, you already have this perspective in you
that cant be change easily.
i stand firmly to your belief, thinking
which i guess whatever i say wont change much of your thinking.