back from my date and i was just trying to act as though nothing happen to me in front of mum. but she just want to pick a fight with me lahs. so we quarrelled and i cried. its was a good way of reliefing myself and also a good excuses to cry cause i really needed to.

all i just want is to be alone. sorry. i off my phone so that i cant be contacted at all.

i am not blaming or angry with the sms that JJ send or what. i know something was just wrong with you but yet you just wouldnt say. the movie was supposed to be nice but you dont seem to enjoy it and i guess it really suck. i didnt even realise that you had no mood for movie and stuff but just wanted to go home and slack around. after everything then you told me all about it. how would you feel?

you are my boyfriend but yet i didnt know what is going through your mind and stuff. then i dont know why am i there for. you didnt want to bastard me but when i get to know all these, i really hurts me. i asked to you go home and rest cause there's always other time for movie and i guess you are really tired already so you needed lots of rest. didnt i asked you? you siad it was fine and you really wanted to watch movie so i just said anything so long as you liked it.

but i really hate today. it just totally suck. firstly you are busy with your phone and smiling to yourself when you are sms-ing. even bestie realised that and asked me what's going on yet i dont know a single thing. we talk in different language is to find out what is actually going on with you. you had to tell me before i realised it and you would rather tell JJ that you are not feeling good. and you expect me to tell you what am i feeling just now? forget it. anyways, it doesnt matter lahs.

i know i lied just know and i just walked off like that wasnt good but i really wanted to be alone and i am really tired. forgive me. i am not trying to be emo but i am just feeling bad for not being understanding enough. i am just not fit being your girlfriend. i am just uselesss. JJ was being right. being with me is just like capturing you in a cage. you need to be out of the cage and i am willing to let go since i know it now. go. you are free now le.


i just need someone's shoulder to let me cry on.